So blog, in case you are wondering how I've been, I've been fine. Not perfect, but just okay. I'd have to admit that 2011 was a very challenging year but I'd like to believe I've come out wiser, stronger, hopefully more compassionate and understanding and in many ways better.
There are things that didn't change much. I'm still in the same company, I'm still getting paid for talking and motivating people to talk (in English). I'm still single. Although there were many points in time in the previous year when I seriously thought this will soon change...well it didn't. Regarding the drama in my life...well it's still there. It makes its presence felt less often these days though and I think all of us at home have learned much from this drama. It has taught us a lot about acceptance and restraint. I'd like to think that although drama will always be a part of our lives, this "drama" of ours would have a happy ending.
Regarding the changes...about work...well I've managed to remain private and below the radar these past five years here at the office...well it's only the second week of the year and a lot has already changed. My manager thought it would be a good idea to feature me as trainer of the month, and I, being the "diva" and "supastah wannabe" that I am, agreed to it. So lately, people have been coming up to me about the article and I'm quite embarrassed about it :P
...about my love life...last year I was kinda pathetic for being such a wreck because of this one guy whom I allowed to break my heart over and over again these past three years...well sometime during the last quarter of last year I got over him. I didn't know exactly when and how but all the feelings just...poof...disappeared. Well of course, if you know me well you'd know how and why this happened but I don't think it's a good idea to blurt everything out yet. All I can say is that right now, I'm excited about what God has in store for me. I appreciate being single right now. I think God wants me to find pleasure in Him and everything He can bring into my life first before He sends someone into the picture. Last year, I recognized how much He's blessed me with my family and with friends, old and new. He showed me the beauty of His creation and His great love for me when He gave me the chance to go out into the world alone when I went to Korea. I think God wants me to experience all of these first and be convinced that He's all I need in this life...that would be the right season. I think the right season has come :)
Last year, I have to admit I lost faith in love. After seeing and hearing all the things that went on around me I was convinced that man is incapable of truly loving and God is the only one who can truly love. I was convinced that though I may find love one of these days, I shouldn't expect it to last forever. On the first weekend of this New Year, God proved me wrong. He showed me that no matter how messed up this world is man is still capable of loving beyond sin, the pain, the heart break, the tears...true love prevails.
Thank you Lord for proving me wrong...now I think I'm ready :)
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