an open letter

Dear You,

How are you? It's kinda hard to tell how you're doing lately. I used to read you well, but now it's not that easy. It's either you've gotten better at hiding your feelings or I've become less sensitive when it comes to you.

I think it's interesting how we've changed...how from friends we've become strangers only to go back to being acquaintances. It's weird...it's like we're going in circles.

Lately I've been wondering whether I still love you. I've been trying to convince myself that I don't love you anymore and that couldn't care less about you, but who am I fooling? The thing is I don't think I'll ever stop loving you. Perhaps not the way I used to...perhaps I no longer drive myself crazy thinking about you and whether you would love me back...but that doesn't mean I stopped loving you. I supposed I've actually learned to love you even more to the point that I no longer care whether you will ever love me back.

I know things will never turn out to be how I thought it would...but I hope you know that I'll always have your back.